I recently left Scientology after 16 yrs. of dedication and a trained auditor Class V +.
I came across the Perkins Tragedy on the Internet and was shocked to find out about my Scientology friend, Elli Perkins, an OT V, whom I had not seen in years.
When I called Celebrity Center International to ask about this case, I was clearly told "that Jeremy had been mistreated by Psychiatry" and you should not be reading anything on the Internet because it is all lies!" At that very moment, I knew that I had been betrayed by the "Church" of Scientology and nearly collapsed in shock! You see, I have a daughter who has a similar illness as Jeremy's and I could easily have met the same fate as Elli. The mere thought makes me shudder!
Under the threat of loosing my "Total Freedom for all Eternity", I too followed the Scientology policy of avoiding Psychiatric treatment and tried for years to handle my daughter with vitamins and isolation similar to the Lisa McPherson handling. On several occasions, I even signed her out of the Psychiatric unit against medical advice. Throughout her illness, I was subjected to several violent assaults. One episode I recall vividly, was when she stood directly in front of me with a butcher's knife posed to her heart warning me that if I moved one inch, she would kill herself. I froze in terror for some time until she broke silence with an evil laugh saying "I scared you didn't I?" As incredible as it appears to me now, I still dutifully followed the tech of L. Ron Hubbard and avoided Psychiatric treatment.
During another episode, she shoved me in the back, so violently, that I sailed across the room and hit my forehead on a brass plate causing me to temporarily loose my memory.
The best advice I received from Scientology was to DISCONNECT from her as they considered her to be a SUPPRESSIVE PERSON! This of course would leave her abandoned and w/o any hope of assistance so I persisted until she finally was hospitalized for the 9th time and she rightly decided to take her Psychiatric prescription and receive counseling. She reported that she now feels normal for the first time in her life. I cried for hours.
In his essay "Soul Hackers" (the second place winner of the LMT Literari Challenge, Year 2000), the author Anti-Virus wrote:
"Within the organization, the auditor is revered above all other personnel-this is the edict and position of Hubbard. Signs and promotional pieces abound: "Auditors are the most valuable beings on the planet." As one can imagine, the degree of ego-inflation can be extreme, no matter how intense and deeply seated the original intention of the auditor is to help others. It seems that this very desire to help is most insidiously taken over and corrupted by Scientology. Auditors represent the most lucrative source of income for Scientology, and that fact is obscene beyond words."I was once an arrogant Scientology auditor not unlike the Tom Cruise we watched on the Matt Lauer program but now I am a humble Being, resuming my quest for true enlightenment. It is true that I had a great deal of success in my career as an auditor. I even made a Clear but the price was far too high and took far too long. I nearly abandoned my family and came dangerously too close to loosing my fortune.
All the goals and dreams I had before Scientology were not achieved until I left Scientology. I restored my marriage, I salvaged my business and I am available to help my children. True JOY is pervading our lives at long last!
My husband, once declared a Suppressive, remarkably persisted with our relationship and gently pointed me in the right direction risking being permanently disconnected from me (his greatest Love who rescued him in time of need). He helped me discover the real suppressive in our lives. According to L. Ron Hubbard "The real Suppressive goes undetected for a very long time." In my case, 16 years. Ironically and to my great horror I discovered the True Suppressive is L. Ron Hubbard himself. How evil can one be? He could be so evil as to hack the souls of his very devoted, hard working and often very intelligent followers for the sake of making money. I can think of no greater form of degradation than that. You may well speculate that I must really hate L. Ron Hubbard and the Cult of Scientology but I don't. To quote a passage from The Background and Ceremonies of the Church of Scientology of California, World Wide 1970 "What is Greatness?"
"The hardest task one can have is to continue to love one's fellows despite all reasons he should not.
And the true sign of sanity and greatness is so to continue. For the one who can achieve this, there is abundant hope. For those who cannot, there is only sorrow, hatred and despair, and these are not the things of which greatness or sanity or happiness are made. A primary trap is to succumb to invitations to hate.
Seeking to achieve any desirable quality in life is a noble thing. The one most difficult and most necessary to achieve is to love one's fellows despite all invitations to do otherwise.
True greatness merely refuses to change in the face of bad actions against one -- and a truly great person loves his fellows because he understands them."
I studied this text to become an ordained Minister of Scientology and often referred to this passage when I felt betrayed and now I find that the biggest traitor of my life was the very author of these words who was incapable of applying this profound truth so eloquently stated. Throughout his writings L. Ron Hubbard expresses hatred against various organizations especially the Psychiatric Association. To this very day, his organizations especially CCHR -Citizens Commission for Human Rights and its members are encouraged to utterly destroy the entire Psychiatric industry using films and photographs taken by the Nazis when they first did experiments and presenting these to the Scientology public as though these experiments are ongoing with the purpose of raising huge contributions. Unbeknownst to the public, the funds are used to cover huge legal expenses such as the $8,000,000.00 settlement of the Wollersheim case which took 22 years of litigation and millions of dollars spent on lawyers.
For nearly a year, I have been researching Cults (Scientology in particular) and reading for up to 18 hours a day desperately trying to understand how such things could happen to Scientologists when we were promised a life full of joy and solutions to all our problems. THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT SCIENTOLOGY IS A CULT AND A VERY DANGEROUS ONE. It is a form of tyranny and like Thomas Jefferson once wrote on September 23, 1800, "I have sworn upon the altar of God eternal hostility against every form of tyranny over the mind of man." CBS 48 Hours's "Scientology-A Question of Faith" is an excellent expose and did exactly what I hoped a responsible broadcasting network would do when I first discovered the brutal murder of an OT V by her Scientology son. I consider myself very fortunate to have left Scientology alive and my daughter not dead by suicide or worse -- institutionalized for the rest of her life.
Do not think for a solitary moment that the Perkins Story is unique! I know of another family who is currently in jeopardy, but that family, I fear, is too deeply indoctrinated and my warning has been thwarted by their policy of Disconnection. My only hope is that their youngest son who has found out the truth about Scientology via the Internet and CBS 48 Hours, will persist in his efforts to convince his parents before his sister, who has exhibited similar behavior as my daughter and in desperate need of Psychiatric treatment, dramatizes more violence resulting in yet another Scientology tragedy.
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